First things first, I'm now 27 years old. Yay? Haha. I can't say I'm especially thrilled to have turned 27, but after everything I've been through recently, I guess I have no right to complain to be alive for another year. I'm actually quite happy and thankful to greet each day now.
I got spoiled rather well by all my family. :) My parents threw a fabulous party for me, and I was treated to lobster by my mommy-in-law. It was nice to be able to celebrate my life with so many of my loved ones. Like I mentioned earlier, I am a woman so I naturally hate turning a year older, but on the other hand I'm just happy to be here. So thank you to everyone who celebrated with me! I love you guys and appreciate you coming together for this silly ol' Anj.
I spent today awaiting my phone call for my MRI results. I got a blocked phone call at one point and answered in case it was the oncologist calling. Turned out to be my nurse navigator Susann (the wonderful woman who aided me with setting up initial appointments, giving me hugs, handing me tissues and even sitting through my first MRI with me the day I first found out my diagnosis). She had gone to some event and was asked to give away a free spa day to one of her cancer patients. Guess who she thought of? :D
She said I had been so strong and positive about everything I'd had to face, and thought I could use a day to relax. So as long as my surgery isn't on June 18th, and my oncologist gives the okay, I get a fancy spa day with lunch for free in Newport Beach!
Now then, back to issue of my results! I was much too impatient, so with some encouragement from Susann that I should call to get my results... I did!
Let's do bad news first. The cancer is still there. That one lymph node still has some involvement. Also, they saw another mass in my right breast. Now for the good stuff! My tumor and the lymph node have "greatly diminished in size". The tumor went from almost 2cm in diameter to 0.3cm. :) The new mass they found also seems to be benign. Although they can't know for sure without a biopsy, but seeing as I was given the okay for surgery, I can't see any point to test it. Apparently my oncologist has the same idea as me, as his note accompanying the results said I had completed chemo and he'd be talking with my breast surgeon.
Time to quote my post title!! You may be thinking as I am *ahem*:
Sooo... what now?
Well, tomorrow I will call and try to set up an appointment to meet with my surgeon. Then we'll really have a game plan. Otherwise, all is back to normal again. For now.
Praise the Lord that the first chapter of this has ended, and with His aide, onto the next!
"Moreover
[let us also be full of joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our
troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and
affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance." Romans 5:3
If my heart was overflowing with love and gratitude for Christ before... now, it's bursting!
On Friday I had my follow up appointment with my oncologist. I didn't even notice I was nervous about my appointment until we were there. After waiting for what seemed to me as much longer than it actually was, my doctor came in. My blood work from 2 days prior all looked excellent, and I quote him, "you wouldn't even know I had given you any chemo". :) Haha, so I guess I'm still really healthy?
He then examined me. The verdict? Well, he believes the tumor has disappeared just as we had thought/hoped! As for what's next, I will be getting another MRI done on my breasts very likely this next week. This way my surgeon will know exactly what is or isn't there yet. Then I'll probably be going to appointments to discuss my surgery and reconstructive surgery, etc.
After the details of surgery are squared away, I should get a breather for a while. My oncologist figures they'll want to wait until early-mid June to do my surgery so my body has had time to fully recover from my last chemo session.
But the best news of all? There's no definite plan for any further chemo! In fact, he's hopeful that as long as my pathology reports come back looking good after surgery, there will be no need for more chemo. Praise the Lord!
I will be praying hard for that. I'm not sure I can mentally/emotionally withstand another 4 rounds.
That said, I had a very tough time dealing with that last round. The accumulation of all my treatments had me down and out for a solid week.
Jason thought he'd surprise me and try to cheer me up by taking me to see The Avengers last Tuesday as we'd both really wanted to see it. Very sweet and valiant effort on his part, but it was just too soon. My body was so fatigued, I came home and slept for several hours afterwards. That was sad because all I did was sit somewhere other than home for a few hours and I was still exhausted.
When we went to get my blood work done (as we do every week) on Wednesday, I got winded just walking to and from the car. I was beyond frustrated and at my maximum capacity for dealing with all this chemo-symptom nonsense. I let my boss know I wouldn't be in for any of my shifts for the week. I was so scared I was going to show up at work and be unable to stay, I figured it was safer to just have someone able-bodied there in my stead. Lol
Thankfully Diablo 3 came out earlier in the week to help stave off the boredom and to get my mind off this yucky stuff. Oh yeah, readers who may not know me personally, I'm a geeky gamer girl. :3 haha, but seriously, I've been waiting for this game to come out for ooh... a decade? Yep. I was even playing original Diablo back when I was 11 years old. I'm that awesome. Anyhow, I was very happy with the distraction.
I'm pleased to say as of yesterday, I felt much more like myself again. Still feeling many side effects that are lingering ones of course. My tastebuds are still wacky and off. My internal thermometer runs warmer than normal, and I often get night sweats. I also have dry mouth that won't quit. Can't wait 'til these all disappear too. For now though, I'm just relieved to know there's no planned chemo in my future. ;)
Ahh yes, and while I don't have any NEW hair growth... what I do have
left has been growing a bit. I do wonder how long it will be until I get
new growth? Only time will tell I s'pose.
And next Sunday, we're going over to my parents to have a mini "no more chemo"/birthday party for me. My brothers will be there with their wives and kids, and I haven't seen most of them in months. So I'm super excited for that. ^_^ Also get to see my kitty, which Jason and I had to leave with my parents because our apartment is too small, so YAY!
Oh, and there will totally be beer at my mini celebration. Haha. I have been craving a good beer and was scared to have alcohol during all this. So yay for family, kitty and beer! Haha.
Now though, life can return to normal for a spell. I work all this week, and I suspect I work all next week too. That's fine with me. I will never take feeling normal and living normally for granted. It's a gift that should not go unappreciated, much as each day is.
I also made it to church this morning. It was the first time I had gone since before my treatment began. I said a whole lot of formal thank yous while I was there. It felt amazing, and I'm glad I was able to feed my soul. I needed a recharge!
"And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19
That's truly all the news I have for now. I will post updates once I've
got news to share, but for now, I'm happy to have nothing else and
grateful for the upcoming normalcy. :)
Round 4 is in the books! Done done done! ....for now. Next Friday I meet with my oncologist and find out his plan for me. It's looking like I will be doing another four cycles of chemo, but what's up in the air is whether I will be doing it now or after surgery. My guess is still that it would be post surgery. We shall see though!
Sorry all, had to take my own pic this time! Haha.
Seems rather surreal to say I have finished this "last" round (even if it's not technically my last). I am so grateful to be able to say it, regardless of that fact though! It means I have completed the first part of this difficult journey, and for that, I am relieved and pleased!
My treatment went smoothly. Got the vein on the first try and it went quickly again. Jason is still super sick with that gross cold I had. Oh! Which, by the way, I started feeling better from on Wednesday a bit and then by yesterday felt much much better. I still have a cough, but it's manageable.
Anyway, because of his being sick, he took me to my appointment but stayed in the car so as not to risk infecting other patients. So I was flying solo. Least I didn't have to completely go it alone until my last one when I knew what to expect. I just pray he feels better soon, my poor fella. :(
We stopped for a quick bite for lunch and then headed back home. So far I feel okay. Nothing shockingly different. I had some iced tea I probably shouldn't have had, so I feel like I've got a little too much adrenaline. Otherwise I'm okay.
Other than that, I've lately been missing my hair. Haha. My work wig is looking shabby and I was never 100% satisfied with it anyway, so my parents have generously/kindly bought me a new one and it's ordered and on the way. So much cuter. Looks like how my hair did when I had an angled a-line bob but um, better. Since it's always perfect and waaay easier to manage. ;) I don't know why but they never have dark colored wigs in stock. As an "I want it now" person, it's frustrating to wait but what choice do you have? Lol.
Speaking of kind/generous deeds; my dear friend Samara has kindly purchased dinner to be delivered for Jason and I tonight. She says it's to help celebrate. :) I thought that was very sweet, especially since neither of us are really up to cooking. So thank you again girl!
God is good, and I'm so happy to be through some of the most trying portion of this. And even if we have further trying times ahead, I'm thankful to be done with some part of it. I'm one large step closer to recovery. Without His help, I would not be. For without the courage I've been granted, I would not have made it this far.
So here's to the next part of the journey, whatever that may entail. May Christ guide me and my husband through it with renewed courage and strength so we can endure this. May our love for one another and for Him grow stronger.
Thanks for reading and have a wonderful weekend! Happy Mothers Day to all my loved ones who are mothers and all you other moms reading, and especially my mom! I love you Mom! Thank you for everything and enjoy your day, I wish I could spend it with you!
"Always giving thanks to God the Father, for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ" Ephesians 5:20
Did you know you could get a regular old garden variety nasty old cold while you're going through chemo? If you did, then you knew more than I did! Started probably last Wednesday? Hard to say though, as I felt crap from the after effects of treatment as usual anyway. I know that's about the time I started with a tickle in my throat. Sporadic coughing and such.
This last go round was tough. Lots of crying and frustration on my part. I went back to work this past Thursday, as I have been, and wasn't able to get through it. I had to go home after being there only a couple hours. I was beyond fatigued and dizzy. Of course I was displeased with myself for that. Missed work Friday, went back Saturday... but by then my cold was beginning to kick in.
Nobody is at the oncology office on the weekend, so I had no idea whether it was okay for me to take any OTC cold meds. I suffered through until this morning without anything. I'm still surprised they didn't want to give me antibiotics or anything. They also were not too worried about if I were still sick for my infusion this Friday. Wtf? Haha.
It just gets to the point where you're simply sick of feeling sick. Now is when I would regularly feel "normal" again before going through it all over again, so it really sucks to be genuinely sick before feeling chemo-sick.
Praying I feel better ASAP. I need a breather, if only for a day.
Work has been shorthanded as well, as we lost a couple of employees due to various circumstances recently. So I feel an extra responsibility to be there. The thing about that is that nobody else really has any excuse to skip work if the girl fighting both cancer AND a cold simultaneously is there for her shifts. ;) Lol
Poor Jason caught my cold too, but he's just beginning it.
We're gonna be a sorry looking pair. Haha.
And speaking of us as a couple, tomorrow is our anniversary! <3
We'll have been married for 2 years.
We've been through A LOT of stuff in those 2 years of marriage too. Both of us were both unemployed through part of that first year, then I was trying to find work without any luck. I finally found my job at the beginning of this year and we got our own place, then I was diagnosed with cancer seriously only a month after we'd moved.
Not sure why we've been dealt the cards we have, but I can say without a doubt that our love can survive anything. The bond Jason and I have forged through all our trials is paramount. And the foundation for our love? God. If we didn't have God as our marriage's rock, I don't know we'd have made it this far. Love is grand no matter what, but without Christ, difficulties the magnitude we've faced together would have easily torn us apart if only from the stress.
So thank you Lord, for holding us up when no one else (not even ourselves) could. I will continue to thank Him, as I know He will get us through this as well. He already got us this far, and this will have been the first huge challenge of this journey. :)
Guess that's all for now, my lovely readers. I shall post about my FINAL (for now) treatment later this week. Hope you all have an easy and safe week!
" Be merciful to me, LORD, for I am faint; O LORD, heal me, for my bones are in agony."Psalm 6:2
They got a vein on the first try, thank you Jesus, and it actually went faster this time. Done after 2 hours and 45 minutes instead of over 3 hours. I did get a headache like my first time, but Jason ran to a CVS across the street like my knight in shining armor to get me Tylenol and that remedied the issue.
Yes, that is one of my sweet new wigs and an AMAZING blanket
a friend of ours' sweet mom made for me! <3
Now I wait for the onset of fatigue/appetite loss/dry mouth for the next week, but at least I am nearing the finish line for my first round of treatment!
Did I say first round of treatment? [insert HUGE sigh here] YES, that's what I said. I asked one of my oncology nurses point blank today what would be next for me. I had been browsing my original regimen outline my doctor had given me. I noticed 4 treatments with the meds I've been given, and then another 4 with a different one. It's not 100% certain, but pretty darn likely.
I have a follow up with my oncologist doc after my last treatment (which will be May 11th). I assume he'll be setting up a PET scan with me then or maybe even prior to that? Regardless, that will answer a lot of questions on how well the chemo has been working for me. We know the tumor is near impossible to find by touch now, but hopefully that damn lymph node is cured too.
Next? I can safely assume I'll be meeting again with my surgeon and plastic surgeon. How soon will that all go down? Well, that's a mystery to me at this point. My second chemo treatment, if needed, will be after I've had surgery. This much I know.
Something that slipped my mind with my last post I had intended to mention is that I got the results back from my first genetic test. I was tested for the BRCA1/BRCA2 genes. My genetic counselor was shocked to report that it had come back negative. She was convinced, considering my age and lack of direct female relatives aside from my mother and grandmothers, that it would come back positive.
She urged me to consider getting another version of the test. I'm not sure if I understand it completely, but it had to do with rearranging the gene DNA to see if I had some mutation of either I believe? I got results back from that today. Guess what? Negative! Beyond strange. She thought that'd be positive too. Lol... so now I am going to get more blood drawn to send off to the labs for testing of some P53 gene.
Happy news out of this? Well, without carrying the BRCA1/BRCA2 gene, I don't believe my nieces will need be concerned for an increased risk of breast cancer. If Jason and I are blessed to have a child one day, we don't need to be concerned that our child carries the gene. Also, this means I'm not at an increased risk myself for ovarian cancer! I'll take what I can get when it comes to good news. The problem is, they can't tell me how likely my chance of breast cancer returning would be, or whether I might get it in my other breast. Still hoping for my double mastsectomy regardless though. I want to eliminate the risk altogether.
So, I'm bald now. Like, save for a few hairs I am legit bald. It was much more disheartening to me than I originally anticipated. I've broken down a few times over it. Especially when it really began to fall out. I'm at peace now. In fact, as I write this, I'm rockin' my bald head in all its glory. Haha.
This does mean more hats, more wigs, etc. Which is okay. I'm getting used to it. ^_^ My parents came to visit us last Saturday, which was very very nice. I had missed them a lot. They bought me a couple new wigs, and my new long one is seriously fabulous. I wish my hair could be that full and gorgeous naturally! Check it out. I'm wearing it in my chemo pic, but this shows the color in it so much better --
Otherwise, I keep on truckin'. After my treatments, I usually don't seem to have the strength to return to work until the following Thursday. Even then, it's a bit straining for me. Then I work a couple more days to finish out the week, and work every day leading up to my next treatment. It's helping to keep me sane I think. Too much energy, anxiety, thoughts to deal with if I'm left in my own company too long.
That's why it is best for me that I have the hubby while I get and recover from my treatments, and some loving family and friends to step in on some in between days he can't be with me. Work and my friends at work to help me cope the rest of the time. So grateful for everyone. :)
This time around, I'm going to work on building my stamina to see if it helps at all. I still plan to rest when I need rest, but my nurse suggested trying to get up as often as I can throughout the day to walk around for at least 10 minutes. I think I need to. This time I've been experiencing more anxiety for whatever reason. Possibly just the anxiety that this first part of my journey is already complete? Who knows. Jason and I got out to a community park across the street from our place to walk for a few minutes earlier this evening. Felt good to get fresh air and a little light exercise. So hoping to repeat that for sure.
My SIL Marylou is participating in the 3-Day Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure in my honor, bless her heart! And she's officially signed up for it. Now my other SIL Briana just set up a team to walk in my honor as well for the November 4th San Diego Race for the Cure. Team Pwn Cancer for the win, bitches! Hahaha. Seriously though, I registered Jason and I to walk as well. I plan to win this fight so I registered myself as a survivor.
I mention this because I'd like to urge anyone reading to donate to this beautiful cause. Any amount is deeply appreciated! And if you're interested and able to walk, come join us and our team! If you're unable to, but still want to help, please please donate on Marylou's page first as her donations are required for her to participate in the walk!
Song time! In a Nine Inch Nails mood and found two that work for me. Can't even begin to describe how emotional this has been. I'm always positive about my situation, but it wears on you and breakdowns come at random moments. I believe this first one sums up those breakdown moments and how I feel.
I've got another one for Jason and I...
Forgive me for bombarding you all, but music soothes the soul! Last of all, and not at all NIN, like not even remotely the same genre! Lol. It's originally by Young the Giant, but I love Daren Criss' voice from Glee. So here's a good one for me and and the feeling of enduring chemo.
Okay. I think I've written enough to make up for 2 weeks without a post hopefully. ;) I shall leave you all with my daily devotional for this day from my Jesus Calling app. It was so perfect I could cry.
"Come to Me with empty hands and an open heart, ready to receive abundant blessings. I know the depth and breadth of your neediness. Your life-path has been difficult, draining you of strength. Come to me for nurture. Let me fill you up with My presence; I in you, and you in Me.
My power flows most freely into weak ones aware of their need for Me. Faltering steps of dependence are not lack of faith; they are links to My presence".
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"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" Isaiah 40:29-31
God bless you all! Have a splendid weekend, and as always, thanks for joining me on my journey.
So round 2 is done, and I've now got only 2 to go!
This go-round was much easier. I didn't have the anxiety I'd had the first time. I knew what to expect, how long it would take approximately, etc.
The only hiccup we had was in the beginning. I had tried to get my blood drawn on the arm opposite where I'd been getting my IV for chemo put in so I could save that vein. First time I'd gotten my blood work done, she was able to tap the opposite vein. This Wednesday, I was still bruised from the previous week in that spot. She tried, but couldn't get it. So she had to draw from my chemo-arm. I was assured it shouldn't be an issue, but of course it was. My nurse at the oncology office tried to insert the IV in that spot and was unsuccessful. So she tried lower down my arm, in between my wrist and elbow. Seemed to go in fine, but started to swell as soon as fluids went in. Sooo... um, no bueno! Thankfully she found a juicy vein on the side of my wrist.
I have petite veins apparently. Haha. I'm seriously praying I can avoid having a port-a-cath put in throughout this. There was another patient today who had gotten one put in 3 weeks ago. I was watching her face when they put the IV in it and she had tears in her eyes! I was thinking to myself, "PLEASE hang in there veins o' mine!!". >_<;
So far so good. Usual tiredness. I know it won't kick in until tomorrow. I found out there's a good possibility I may experience the fatigue for as long as last time. There's also a chance it won't be as long. I am quite grateful that I am not scheduled to work until next Thursday though, just in case.
Speaking of work, I was able to go back last Saturday. My parents came by and visited me for a few hours afterwards that day, which I really needed. They brought me all kinds of goodies, being the sweethearts they are. Love them so much!
I'm also proud to say I worked everyday this week leading up to my treatment. It was great! I actually felt more like a my normal Anj-self again! I love my co-workers too, so that helps.
When I came in last Saturday, I was greeted with all my fellow work buddies donning pink ribbons pinned on their aprons. I was grinning like a fool as I went to the back, and then noticed a little Ziplock baggy full of these pins with a note on it: Support Anj :) . I teared up. All this time I'd been SO worried about my job. I know maybe some people might wonder why I'd be concerned about keeping a barista job as I battle cancer, but I sincerely love working at Starbucks! As I mentioned, my co-workers are awesome and the job just feels right for me. So seeing this gesture one of them (which turned out to be the lovely and sweet Ms. Rebekah O. ^_^) had taken for me helped me feel some relief. Like, oh hey! Maybe I am wanted there, yay!
I'd learned my lesson on the cabin fever that sets in shortly after being shut in while my immune system recuperates last time. So I had asked my SIL Briana if she would mind going with me on Wednesday after I got off work to take me to get my blood work done, and then to get some pedicures. We might have also had some crazy delicious lunch at Lucille's BBQ as well, hehe. It was so nice and a much needed few hours of relaxation. I was much appreciative to her taking the time to go with me. :)
One of my best friends Shalysa came to visit me yesterday too. We just hung out, caught up and got yummy lunch at my favorite Mexican restaurant. I needed those couple of days to feel normal and relax, so I certainly appreciated her visit too. :D
Rewinding a bit... Easter Sunday was the first time I was able to go to a family gathering at all since this whole ordeal began. I'd unfortunately missed my niece Lexi's birthday party because I was in quarantine mode after my first round. So we were invited to Jason's sister and BIL's (Erin and Ryan) place for the day. It was awesome to see all of them. Jason and I got these seriously perfect and amazing t-shirts my dear friend Katie pointed us in the direction of, that have Star Wars stuff about being against cancer. Anyone who knows either of us know that we're all about geeky stuff, and more specifically, Star Wars. Need proof? Our entrance into our wedding reception was set to the Imperial March, Jason had Darth Vader cuff links with his tux, and we own 2 force-fx lightsabers. Yep.
We decided that would be the perfect day to wear them out! So, here we are modelling them!
And here we are with our beautiful niece Isabella, having found one of a few things that was truly relaxing us for the first time since all this began. This was my inspiration for wanting to go for that pedi! Lol. I fully intend to return just so I can hang out in that spa in the near future hopefully!
So, you may have noticed my absence of wig in these photos. It is very cute... but in combination with my glasses? It's horribly uncomfortable. It squeezes my head like a vice. ;( I've only been wearing it to work so I don't have explain anything. Ironically, I've gotten a ton of compliments from customers, regulars included, on my new "hair style". Haha. :) I just thank them!
My hair has become steadily more patchy, but I'm surprised I still have as much as I do. At least I was smart and got myself some Head and Shoulders anti-itch 2-in-1 shampoo to help with the itching. That stuff works too! So any other people who may unfortunately have to go through chemo who end up with itchy scalp, I recommend that for sure.
Other than that, I need to get myself some new hats. Maybe some scarves? Hehe. It's kind of fun doing something different. Even if I do feel like I look like a total goober. It's nice and easy to get ready in the morning! I don't miss doing my hair. AT. ALL. I'm pretty sure the hubby doesn't miss that extra bit of time it takes for me to do it either!
Since I haven't in a while, my song of choice for the moment --
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift
you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for
you."1 Peter 5:6-7
May God bless you all with an extraordinarily wonderful weekend. Enjoy every moment, and never forget to count those blessings. Even if things seem bleak, there's a reason it's been placed in your path. :) Always keep up the fight.
Before I set off into my rambles, I'd like to wish all of you a blessed good Friday. Thank you Christ for the ultimate sacrifice. Whenever I suffer (and especially during this time in my life), I recall that you know better than any other being the true sufferings of this human form. You loved us so much that you were willing to endure it all and overcome death. So, if Jesus can power through the weight of all the sins of the world... I can totally pwn my cancer! Even if some days it seems MUCH harder to. >_>
Alrighty then! Now the ramblings may commence as normal. :)
I did make it in to work this past Wednesday. I don't know that that was the best idea for me at the time however. I made it through my shift, just barely, and had to stop 10 minutes early. I did do it, but felt worse for wear due to it. I was in a cold sweat, nauseous and dizzy beyond words when I finished. I went straight home, foregoing my stop to get blood work done. As soon as I got home and had a good sob from a mixture of frustration/exhaustion, slept for several hours.
I was so concerned with still being so fatigued, I was worried it might be anemia. I had read that anemia can often be a side effect of chemotherapy, and I have had slight anemia in the past. After playing phone tag with my oncology nurse, I discovered she didn't think this was the case. She explained to me that my first treatment was very aggressive, and often times leaves patient experiencing the tiredness and weakness far longer than a typical chemo session.
Hmm, good to know NOW! Haha. I was just so relieved at the thought that I had one less complication I needed to address that I didn't much care I wasn't informed sooner.
I questioned whether I could take supplements or do anything to help my system recover. She said I could, but it wouldn't help with the fatigue. Ughhh. I have a lot of energy regularly, so this stuff has been killing me. The only thing suggested to work was to make sure the nutrition I was getting into my body was filled with plenty of protein.
The next day I found to be pretty taxing on my body as well. I called in for my morning shift on Thursday, as I knew I wouldn't be ready for it physically. Tried to rest some more and recover. Jason took me to get my blood work done that morning, which praise the Lord they were able to use a different vein. Lol... Hubby made me a yummy protein-rich egg burrito and then went off to work.
I was still super tired the rest of the day, but it was the first day I didn't need to take a nap since my treatment. So hey, I see that as improvement! Today can also go down as being one without a nap needed as well so far! :D
Last night I had made the decision that since my wig would be ready for pick up today, I was going to go ahead and have my wig lady cut my hair. Hubby and I went down there today and told her my plan. She was pained by the fact that I was willing to do it already. I hadn't had any noticeable hair loss so far. I explained I had come to terms with it, and would rather lose large amounts of short hair when it starts to go. Seems way more depressing to be in the shower and have my long strands come out in clumps if I had waited.
She didn't fight me after that. And come to find out as she was chopping it off, I did have some patchiness already. I wondered, because my scalp had been insanely itchy the past 2 days. Something to do with the hair follicles something something? Haha.
Either way, my hair is gone now. I also have my cute wig, so I can still look like a girl when I go out at least. ;) And since it's been requested of me, here's the proof:
Well then, I guess that about does it for now guys! Thank you all again for reading, and I hope you all have a beautiful and most holy Easter!
"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139:14
