Between having to follow a strict diet in the 24 hours leading up to my PET/CT scan tomorrow, and discovering I will be begin chemo on Friday... I'm beat!
Let's begin with the latter first. I received my instructions for the PET several days ago, but I didn't pay attention to them closely until I read over them this morning. It states, "Avoid caffeine, sugar and tobacco for 24 hours prior to your exam". Tobacco is no problem as I'm not a smoker. But sugar? Like, no sugar whatsoever? Even if it's in bread?? I was perplexed by this, so I contacted my wonderful nurse. She sent me back examples of foods I could eat, and referenced me this link.
Of course I was starving this morning, and most everything we have has some kind of starch or sugar in it. Finally settled with a couple slices of cheddar cheese and dry albacore tuna with some black pepper. Dull, but filled my belly and served its purpose!
I finished getting ready after I'd eaten, and we were out the door to meet my oncologist. I was told my appointment was at 1:15pm, so we showed up at 12:50 thinking we would allow time for paper work. Upon telling the receptionist this, I was informed my appointment was actually at 2pm. I was told 1:15 to do what else? Oh? allow time for paper work? Lovely! Haha.
After mountains of forms were filled out, we were finally called in. Met my oncologist who happens to be a very, very kind man. He's even a cancer survivor himself. :) He stepped out after talking to me for a few, so I could put on another sweet paper vest. When he returned, I had yet another exam done. It appears I'm very healthy with the exception of this damn cancerous tumor. Go figure.
So we got down to business pretty quickly. Found out another reason why we're going with neo-adjuvant chemo is because my tumor is so close to my chest wall it'd be hard to remove without taking pectoral muscle along with it as it is now. My regimen will be "dose-dense", and I will have 4 sessions. One dose every 2 weeks. This is wonderful news for me because it means I will be finished with chemo in 2 months instead of the originally anticipated 3! ^_^
Another bit of good news? Well, I don't have to get the port-a-cath put in. I'm all for less procedures, so um, yay! Okay, now for the unpleasant news. This way of administering my chemotherapy means my immune system will be compromised. Not totally negative though, as I will be given a shot I will have to give myself that helps with replenishing my white blood cell count/bone marrow. In turn, this means every week I will be going and getting blood drawn. This will be to check how my blood cell count is doing.
Jason intends on being there for each one of my sessions, and will take care of me in the days that follow, thank God. Once I have an idea of how my body reacts to the chemo, I can go on living my life the best I can. I'm rather anxious whenever I'm forced to wait. To me, it's nearly worse than the actual experience.
I shall be praying for my anxieties to be washed away as only God is capable of doing. I also pray that my body accepts the chemo and that any side effects I endure will be tolerable. Jesus, I also plead that my fertility will not be affected by this treatment. I shall accept this if it may be your will that I am not to be a mother, but I pray that I may have the opportunity. Besides, Jason would be a fabulous father (and we'd be a kick ass duo as parents. :D ) So... pretty please?
Phew, I still can't believe so much has happened in such a short amount of time. Part of me is still reeling from the news, and another part is just 100% grateful it's been found and will be treated.
On a happier note, I'm going wig shopping tomorrow after my PET scan! Figures that I finally get a new cute hair cut and I'm going to lose my hair. Haha. Between you and me, I'd rather lose my hair due to treatment than lose my life because I was too vain to accept it. Hair grows back, so who cares? :P
Okay guys. I think I've said enough for now. My appreciation for continued support, love and most of all, prayers! I leave you all with a couple things for today --
"And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." 1Peter 5:10
God bless all of you!