Before I set off into my rambles, I'd like to wish all of you a blessed good Friday. Thank you Christ for the ultimate sacrifice. Whenever I suffer (and especially during this time in my life), I recall that you know better than any other being the true sufferings of this human form. You loved us so much that you were willing to endure it all and overcome death. So, if Jesus can power through the weight of all the sins of the world... I can totally pwn my cancer! Even if some days it seems MUCH harder to. >_>
Alrighty then! Now the ramblings may commence as normal. :)
I did make it in to work this past Wednesday. I don't know that that was the best idea for me at the time however. I made it through my shift, just barely, and had to stop 10 minutes early. I did do it, but felt worse for wear due to it. I was in a cold sweat, nauseous and dizzy beyond words when I finished. I went straight home, foregoing my stop to get blood work done. As soon as I got home and had a good sob from a mixture of frustration/exhaustion, slept for several hours.
I was so concerned with still being so fatigued, I was worried it might be anemia. I had read that anemia can often be a side effect of chemotherapy, and I have had slight anemia in the past. After playing phone tag with my oncology nurse, I discovered she didn't think this was the case. She explained to me that my first treatment was very aggressive, and often times leaves patient experiencing the tiredness and weakness far longer than a typical chemo session.
Hmm, good to know NOW! Haha. I was just so relieved at the thought that I had one less complication I needed to address that I didn't much care I wasn't informed sooner.
I questioned whether I could take supplements or do anything to help my system recover. She said I could, but it wouldn't help with the fatigue. Ughhh. I have a lot of energy regularly, so this stuff has been killing me. The only thing suggested to work was to make sure the nutrition I was getting into my body was filled with plenty of protein.
The next day I found to be pretty taxing on my body as well. I called in for my morning shift on Thursday, as I knew I wouldn't be ready for it physically. Tried to rest some more and recover. Jason took me to get my blood work done that morning, which praise the Lord they were able to use a different vein. Lol... Hubby made me a yummy protein-rich egg burrito and then went off to work.
I was still super tired the rest of the day, but it was the first day I didn't need to take a nap since my treatment. So hey, I see that as improvement! Today can also go down as being one without a nap needed as well so far! :D
Last night I had made the decision that since my wig would be ready for pick up today, I was going to go ahead and have my wig lady cut my hair. Hubby and I went down there today and told her my plan. She was pained by the fact that I was willing to do it already. I hadn't had any noticeable hair loss so far. I explained I had come to terms with it, and would rather lose large amounts of short hair when it starts to go. Seems way more depressing to be in the shower and have my long strands come out in clumps if I had waited.
She didn't fight me after that. And come to find out as she was chopping it off, I did have some patchiness already. I wondered, because my scalp had been insanely itchy the past 2 days. Something to do with the hair follicles something something? Haha.
Either way, my hair is gone now. I also have my cute wig, so I can still look like a girl when I go out at least. ;) And since it's been requested of me, here's the proof:
Well then, I guess that about does it for now guys! Thank you all again for reading, and I hope you all have a beautiful and most holy Easter!
"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139:14